Kissings [GST​-​08]

by Ivy Hollivana

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You still linger like dust under my fingers I close my eyes and see what we used to mean I can shake you off Easier than before Distraction is my forte Let's not get ahead of ourselves I can tell when we need to rest If my arms get heavy I know where I will feel the best In their arms I heard things you've never thought of Things you've never bothered with And i told myself I needed help And i deserved so much better Because I did You changed and so did I Inside I never thought that i could feel like this, oh no When I realized everything was over I couldn't find a way to comfort you It’s sad but true Are you sure that you didn't lose your love for me While I relished in my self pity Oh is it true I'll never know the truth That summer it changed everything but nothing at all I guess this was our fate Our fate was to fall And I couldn't imagine it any other way Your face just didn't feel the same to me And I held on too long And then I fell in love again and I refused to spent my heart on you
Help me endure Help me be pure and unsuspecting Let me live my life in ignorance It’s my best chance Of hoping and waiting now For the storm to dry it out I wonder when we will be able to fly again Hold me down, don’t know Remember I’m the only one to show I’ll be the one to drop the gun and say You prayed for nothing Do we really have to talk about this again I know I'll lose everything my friend It’s not new to me This tragedy is plaguing me Forever But it’s swell It’s swell I swear Nothing seems to be contaminating the air Overall we’re doing fine I just need an excuse to step out of line
Sooner or later Things are going to change And I'll do my best to hold on To the happiness I've arranged For myself at this time I can see my tears forming in the future For the memories I've tried to erase They come back like nightmares and I've expected that they will be there For as long as I can see into the future But you know what I’ll take everything I can get The good and the bad Cos that's what makes me full inside And on that New Year's Day when I decided you didn't deserve any more part of my life I never looked back And as the night Crept on me I realized your company wasn't needed anymore I closed a door and opened another one One to a road A road with new feelings I thought you taught me What it is I really needed But as I looked back I realized I was off track Never let me go darling That's what I genuinely felt But now I realize I gotta do better for myself I looked up and saw the trees waving to me I knew that we once in love But now it's gone Everything is different now And I love myself more than I did before Please, you and me I left so abruptly and with a small goodbye Cos I knew that if i looked back I would be Back in your life And I didn't need it I am better now Without you But you know what I’ll take everything I can get The good and the bad Cos that's what makes me full inside
I see my world flying by And I wonder where I will land I can finally say At the end of the day I will gladly do all of this again Hold me close a little more Hold onto me just a little tighter You know I wasn't quite a fighter Until I saw myself lose my own heart And i suffered from the very start Now life isn't quite a downer I want to exist with you Oh my love what are you made of Sugar and stars I bet With your hands through my hair I know it won't compare to the daydreams of you daily We found each other when we needed each other the most But we didn't even have time for a toast And I couldn't see past my doubts I couldn't imagine it I couldn't imagine myself finally giving sometime to my health and I Sat inside myself, looking at my life Tell me what it is That makes me scarlet When I think of spending every day with you And I know that our future is uncertain And I know it's just blossoming for us But I feel this waver deep inside my core I'm glad I left all of my doors open for you Cos when we met I felt no regrets anymore You're so wonderful to me You radiate beauty And I can't wrap my head around it I grew to love you and it feels so right Late at night I’m not alone anymore You actually try And you continue to try and try for me Do you know how happy that makes me To know that somebody knows What it is I want from this world Tell me what it is That makes me scarlet When i think of spending every day with you You are what I’m looking for
I just hope you will find all of your love inside And I can count the days In the apple tree she showed me Where I needed to be With her arms around me Oh darling rest your head in my hands Everything is ok now This was all planned A glorious newness, a refreshing forfeit To the blooming feelings I had Your words held me close All the way from across the coasts And I know I need you most You made my life anew And helped me get through everything Oh do you know How much I care How much I wanna run my fingers through your hair And now I can’t see my life without you At night if you have any frights I'll be here by your side To chase them all away As the clouds separate I see you walk out of heaven's gate And fall right into my arms May our lives be forever intertwined And let us find the strength to take our time I know that our love is true And I will always wait for you
No more tears for the wilted bloom No more tears for you Even though in this moment in I am thinking of you I’ve accepted the end That we will never be friends Your memories wash across my being And I know that I’m happier now Life is better now You never know how your life will pan out Everything can get better from now Recently my heart has warmed immensely The turning tide has a stride around me I feel it daily The changes made To my life I will see the world She will tell me what I need to do And I will give myself up to the ocean And I will see What it’s like To really be here And as I looked back to those old emails I teared up and finally began to forgive myself Moving on I just want my life To be dedicated as a healing agent I don't wanna be forgotten But eventually it will be too hard to remember me And that's ok I know by now that the world is cycling on and on And if I don't make it to the last stage I will remember all of the good days
A glass galaxy of wishes Lay your hand upon your lover’s wrist And tell them that they are made of your favourite things Hold them close in the night You never know when fear May strike So be there for them When your look around do you see their face Do you wonder how to make your love stay Look at the world they’ve given you to explore To do your best and to come back home Darling I’ll bite Tell me a story from a story explain it to me I don't care if I've heard it a thousand times I just wanna know what you are like Sometimes I feel your fear Creep ahead of you And I am here to tell you That I'll be there I'll be there when the storm starts rolling into the glass heart you have prepared Sometimes I don't know if the best for me is right there And I don't know a lot But i know I will fight to move forward I sometimes slip up And I feel like I am reversing But I remember an important thing If I survived 2014 I can do anything Nothing can stop me now And i look ahead and I see my strength building all over again Meet me in the garden and dance with me We look at our lives And see what we strive to be Darling I hope you know I plan to live endlessly In the hearts and minds of people alike And passing down of memories I just hope I made you smile enough To last you an eternity


❀ kissings ❀
songs dedicated to your self worth & love for others

4th full length album by Ivy Hollivana.

my ultimate and most powerful thanks to:
jesper ♡ for showing me eternal sunlight
chel, ellia, and housey ☆ for being my best friends
sam ☀ for being a wonderful sister
remy & jo ✌ for inspiring me daily
galaxy swim team ♫ for being the most magical collective and giving me a home

my neverending love also to: andrew, morgan, izzy, isiah, jul, viv, eli, michy, brenna, drain, zach, einar, my 50 online mothers, and everyone who has shown me kindness. Blessed are the 4 hour skype calls we make, blessed are the selfies that my friends take.

rest well.


released April 21, 2016

All tracks and cover art - Ivy Hollivana (
Additional vocals provided by McMaNGOS on “apple tree” (
Mastering - Noah Hafford (



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